maate today has been the worst thrusday in a long time, which says alot cos thrusday suck for me most weeks.
Today was my day off, a whole thrusday to my self. It was going to be bad anyway cos i was supposed to have a dentist appointment at 5 and i have a morbid fear of needles.
Its not about having to share your free day with some one you don't want to spend it with.
But my dickhead brother has been ill, ok so for once he may be telling the truth but its not about ME HAVING TO DO ALL THE HOUSE WORK AROUND HIM! I'M EXPECTED TO! (also he's sooo exaggorated, i mean he's "too cold to have his temp taken outside the duvea"... yeah of too scared he may have a lower temp than he wants to make out) i do all the house work anyway, no quarrels; i hoover, pollish, make mums posters for her birthday, the menus and table cards and make lunch clear up and do the washing- no big deal.
and the he's the type which'll do this:
brother: (from upstairs) ALLLLLLLL-ICE
A: (from downstairs) yeeeah?.....*pause... no reply* YEEAH??...*pause... no reply*...OI WHAT DO YOU WANT?...(walks upstairs) WHAAT DO YOU WANT?....*still scilence* (walks in to room) *rather rudely* WHAT DO YOU WANT NOW I'M HERE?
brother: *sulky* Ur NOTHING if your going to talk to me like that? nothing just go away
A: WTF?? WHAT DID YOU WANT?
brother: *sulks* nothing!
Oh and i can't go out, can't even go to the dentist, can't go on the phone cos my mums panicing and waiting for the doctor to call or my dad or my uncle in case mum needs to rush him to hospital and she won't be able to drive. UGH its so dramatic!
I'm being SO restricted. If it wasn't for the dentist being in southall i would have gone JUST TO GET OUT! He's 14!! you can leave him in the house, knowing him he'd probably only get up play the playstation for a bit and play counter strike at most.
I don't want to go to the dentist but i NEED to go. i missed the other 2 appiontments because i had mini panic attackes in the surgery. Today i really felt ready and ok about going but mother goes and chooses between us.
I donno what it is but people who get ill overly alot really annoy me! which isnt' too much of a good quality to have as i'm going in to medicine. My brother is like one of them but its not real, he'll be tired, drowsy, sickly until he's in his room playing counter strike, avoiding house work or doing something for some one else. Its really lame. i really hate him, my dads always sympathising with me though, i get the sibling hatred from him. He hated his younger sister almost as much as i hate my younger brother. It is blatant hysteria and favourtism with my mum, shes such an idiot, its embarrasing
I have a friend who a kinda illness prone too. i can imagine her studying till 1 am and the getting up at 5 am to study some more. But she doesn't need to study like that. No wonder shes always tired and sickly. She never goes out either. Never seems to relax. She so serious, it tenses me up. I mean her rents dont' let her on the tube sometimes; i donno, i'm thanksful to have more freedom than that at least.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i need to chill, BUT CAN'T LEAVE THE HOUSE IN CASE MY MUM NEEDS ME! or incase they rush him to the hospital!! did you know she took him to hospital in the frame of mind that he had lukemia...when he was actually not eating enough of anything. nothings wrong with him, he just doesn't eat enough, out of choice and now habit *sigh* why couldn't i have had a sister!